5.04.2009

What am i looking for, exactly?

to have and not to have, both results in complaining.
there are always problems. and i'm really not sure how to deal with them yet. maybe a solution will come with time, but i feel like all i can do right now is to push things aside. i mean, i definitely have other important things to focus on. but problems are also a looming part of my life. brushing things aside might cause larger problems later. but, you know, humans tend to weigh short-term gains more heavily than long-term consequences. it will work out somehow. if it doesn't, i will be sad, but everything will be ok.
I don't regret anything, but sometimes, i am convinced that many of this is just self-inflicted pain.

maybe i am a masochist.

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