4.22.2009

it's interesting to discover things you knew before.

isn't it funny? that just as i was reading about how memories can be triggered from related events that that specific thing happens to me?
I was thinking about Isangs exec board nominations, and just suddenly remembered that I ran for class treasurer when i was in 9th grade. funny,,.. i don't even remember when I've forgotten about that.
memory is such a weird thing, though... once I started thinking about it, I did some digging up of my past.
when "things" happened when I was too young, they are a part of my family's memory, but really doesn't exist in mine. I wished I was older then. maybe.

-- but seriously, where are you? come out and prove everyone wrong, please.

4.12.2009

What would someone know about love if he has never loved before?

I think blind loving is heart-breaking. and it is also laughable.
unconditional love is bs, especially if it's one-sided. anything that people say to prove that wrong is only to make themselves feel better about not being loved in return. it is sad for them, and it is sad for people watching. the only happy one is the oblivious idiot who is unknowing causing pain.
but then, what do I know?
it is just agonizing to watch.

4.05.2009

god. or other higher divine entities,

why can i not be more assertive?
what. the. fuck?

4.01.2009

Once upon a time,

I was capable of offering intelligent input on serious conversations. Now, I don't know whether I'm just indifferent about speaking my mind, or if I just don't have another drop of original thought in me.
I cannot articulate myself comme un intelligent human-being.